Where is my pen!

Today is dedicated to my pen! All i want to do today is to get some work done on the computer...I write any research worth noting down by hand in a notebook. That is my plan...if it wasn't for my pen keep disappearing into another dimension!

Learning to pace myself

Last week i got given a diary sheet to fill out from my CBT appointment. HOLY MOLEY! Did i realise how much wandering about i do? I'm not sure if its just me being stubborn or my brain fog choosing what it wants to remember or forget of my daily life, to have this frosted glass effect on where i'm going wrong.

For example: Day 1 - Monday.

Got up. Had my Gabapentin, 60mg Codeine, 1000mg Paracetamol, 800mg Ibuprofen. Got the kids ready for school. Lunches packed. School run done.....Walked to my grandparents (which i didn't realise until my therepist told me -one way is 3 miles!)

So i sat down at my grandparents for a few hours. Had more meds. WALKED BACK HOME! Did the shopping. Picked the kids up. Got home at 4pm.

                     Day 2 - Tuesday :
                     USELESS. I had to cancel my sons rugby practice as i couldn't get him there

                     Day 3 - Wednesday
                     USELESS. I had to cancel my hospital blood test and rearrange it.




It does suck not being able to do these things for myself, i love walking places, i love exploring and following my interests everywhere, but i need to lose this stubbornness! Due to this walk i lost 2 whole days!

Pace myself!

Drugs are bad, they numb you so you don't feel things and don't feel the damage you are doing, but they help you as well, to get you through the day..

I cannot go for long walks to the shops or on holidays or to castles, some people can, everyone's limits are different. I am lucky in a sense that im not bed/house bound, but i am only 28 and i'm still fairly young and i hope it doesn't get worse as this is not fun for anybody with me......this is why i push people away.

A Sad Day

So today i learned that my Great Auntie Joan has passed away, she was found in her chair by her son who had tried to, unsuccessfully, call her last night but to no avail.

I hadn't seen her for years and years since she move back down South from up North, but i will always remember her voice, isn't it weird what you remember of people :) .

I shared a lot of medical links with her that i don't with other family members, she also had Graves disease and had a Thyroidectomy like myself, she had gallstone issues and also, the big one, Fibromyalgia!, it was just me and her who had it in the family that i know of!

I was a bit naughty today and walked all the way to my grandparents and all the way back, up to school, to the shops to get tea, the school run and then now iv'e finally sat down at 4 pm from being out from 10 am, i decided to double my medication as i knew i had to go and see my gran, as she has just lost her sister. My granddad gave me £5 for the bus, so if anybody sees him, please lie for me and tell him i caught the bus haha ;).

 Sadly i HAVE to write this on my diary form for CBT which will obviously end up with me getting shouted at......i am forever getting shouted at, but thats what theyre there for, to help me pace myself, this is my problem, im very stubborn, if i feel i can do something i don't think of the consequences....i can feel the consequences now though......grim!

Here are some spoons :)

Silent Sunday

#silentsunday

I like my quotes i do

Healing Crystals for Fibromyalgia

Crystals are a big part of my life, i only started my collection early this year after reading books and posts, the way they can help the body whether its to aid healing, infertility, love, sleep...you name it, there are crystals for it.

Crystal Healing can be described as the application of crystals to aid the body’s energy system find a healthy and comfortable point of balance to improve the quality of life. As we’ve already seen pain has a serious detrimental effect on the quality of life and crystals can be highly effective in removing pain.

Crystals can help pain in several ways. They can work directly on the pain as above, certain crystals will generally aid particular areas of the body, such as citrine for the digestive tract or emerald for the lungs, and working with or just wearing these crystals may help to relieve pain in specific areas or organs in the body and some crystals will act as “pain killers” and dull the sensation such as chevron amethyst.

Amethyst is my favorite, i have a large raw Amethyst rock, small crystals in a jar and numerous polished for around my neck. It is prized for its ability to work on all types of pain, whether emotional, physical, spiritual, or other.  Amethyst works on the subtle level by balancing the subtle energy bodies and cleansing the aura.  Meditation with Amethyst can bring new insights into issues that may or may not have been addressed by you in the past.  Amethyst is said to relieve pain, depression, anxiety, and insomnia

Citrine can provide an energizing vibe of vitality and hope when it is most needed, helping to lesson depression and negativity. Citrine makes a great compliment to Amethyst, so much so that they are often found together in the form of Ametrine, which beautifully combines the two energies of these crystals.

 Rose Quartz can be quite helpful to those who find themselves depressed or sad.  As soon as onenQuartz is known as the Master Healing Crystal because it contains the full spectrum of light and as such will work on every level to bring the body into balance. It strengthens and stabilizes the body's energy fields and promotes harmony. Quartz can amplify both positive thoughts and energy and can stimulate positive action when it is needed. It can be held or worn to promote clarity of thought and to help you to see your way more clearly.For Fibromyalgia symptoms i wear/ hold Rose Quartz and Clear Quartz.